Career Choice #2- Ugh!!

So, last Thursday I was sitting in my first class, accounting. I was handing in a test thinking that I failed the thing and do not know one single thing we are talking about. That is when I basically decided that I hate what I’m doing. I almost feel like I don’t want to go into financial services anymore. Maybe it’s just because I feel lost in the class? I don’t really know. I feel so discouraged. I thought I finally had caught up to the things we are talking about until I took that test, which was supposed to be an easy one. I try and study as much as I can but I still feel behind. I just don’t know what direction to turn. Do I keep going with financial services, or try and figure something else out? I feel like that would almost be a waste of money though. Then again, I am going for financial services, not accounting specifically, so maybe I can just get through this class and the other accounting class and never have to worry about it again. I currently work at a real estate office as a secretary. I like it, but I don’t think I can do it for the rest of my life. The pay is good, but not good enough to live completely on my own. I also just got offered a job as a bank teller, but my school schedule wouldn’t allow me to take it. This is unfortunate because it had benefits. I don’t know, maybe I’m just stressed and discouraged and need to start the week over with an open mind.

Reader Response #4- 007

First of all I would like to say that I have never seen an entire James Bond movie and have no interest in doing so, because I feel like I would not have the attention span to finish them all. The closest I have ever been to James Bond is playing the really, really old video game with my neighbor Nathan when we were kids. He was always James and I was always one of the girls. I think her name was Zoe? I don’t really know, and it does not really matter, either. I will say that when flipping through the TV channels I have seen the Bond movies, and every time I saw one he was either drinking with a woman, sleeping with a woman, or shooting a gun. Bond also drives fancy cars and is always stays in a nice hotel. James Bond was always with a different woman, too. Just like the reading said. I am not really sure how this passage is supposed to help me with my paper, because I did not really get anything out of it. Maybe it’s because I did not watch the movies? I don’t know it just seemed very confusing to me. It could have also been the word choices that Scott uses that confused me. By the way Scott talks, it sounds like there were a lot of movies made. That’s probably why I don’t understand, because I’m too far behind. Maybe I should watch these movies just to see what all the hype is about.  

Reader Response #3- Juno

I personally love the movie Juno. I wasn’t sure that I would like it when it first came out, but it turned out to be really funny. It all started with a chair in Juno’s friend Bleeker’s room. Juno and her best friend did….unthinkable things ;). I love how the beginning of the movie starts how Juno is walking around town chugging a huge container of Sunny-D. She ends up walking to the local store to buy a pregnancy test and finds out she is pregnant. I’m sure that that’s a scary situation for a sixteen year old. I know I would be flipping out beyond anything imaginable! Anyway, Juno decides to give her baby up for adoption, so Juno and her friend look in a newspaper to find a couple that wants to adopt a baby.  Juno and her dad meet the couple and Juno instantly connects with the husband and for a bond through their taste of music. The husband ends up wigging out by the time that the baby is born, which I think is TERRIBLE! I honestly didn’t see it coming when I first watched this movie. By the time the baby is born Juno and Bleeker are friends again and sort of in a relationship. Vanessa, the wife, takes the baby anyway to raise it and Juno and Bleeker have a heart to heart moment where there is no dialogue. I realize that I just did my entire readers response more about the movie than the actual text…but I don’t care. I can see where critics would say that this movie is bad for young girls to watch because Juno isn’t a good role model, but they make it sound like it was all rainbows and smiles for her. Juno struggled and you could see that in parts of the movie as well.

In Class #4- The hall was quiet un untill she heard...

The hall was quiet until she heard the faint sound of high heels clicking and clacking. The sound was coming closer and closer, to close for comfort, the girl decided to run. She quickly ran into the bathroom and locker herself in a stall. Then, she heard the door open, the squeaking of the door made her even more nervous. The woman that came into the bathroom was the exact person that the girl was trying to hide from, Mrs. Jefferson. "Carrie? Caaaarrie?" she said. Carrie quickly pulled her feet to her chest so no one would know that she was in there. Carrie held her breath thinking that Mrs. Jefferson would be able to spot her out and bring her to class. Mrs. Jefferson walked out of the bathroom and back to her classroom. Relieved, Carrie then walked out of the stall and into the hallway. Little did she know that Mrs. Jefferson was standing right outside the door. "CARRIE, get back to class!" Mrs. Jefferson screamed. Carrie, thinking her heart fell to the pit of her stomach, walked in to the classroom. She slumped down in her chair and tried not to make a scene. "Now, which one of you wants to give your speech first?" Mrs. Jefferson said with a witch like voice. No one said a word. Dropping a pencil in that silent classroom would have sounded like a bomb. "Carrie, how about you!" she screeched.

In Class #2- How I Met Your Mother

I really like the show How I Met Your Mother. I never really wanted to watch it before my boyfriend showed it to me one day. I thought this particular episode was really funny. I liked how it jumped ahead in time, unlike most shows showing flashbacks. Also, I LOVE the friendship that would want to do something like this. Just pick a good movie and watch it together every so often. Okay, these blinking lights in the classroom are really getting on my nerves. Oh, the farting thing was also really funny. I could see myself doing that exact thing actually. The way they changed their futures was great. They had a few things remain the same. I really wish that we would just find out who the "mother" is already! I wonder if we will ever find out. Within the episodes I watch I keep changing my mind on who it is. It drives me crazy! I really wonder if this is what I'm supposed to be writing about (haha!) I never feel like I'm doing these right.... 

In Class #1- Object

My object is a ball. A tennis ball to be exact. it is round and bright yellow. this yellow is very bright like me! I would guess that this tennis ball would not taste very good because it's an old one and has beed used. the smell of it is very rubbery. I do not really know if I'm doing this promt right or not. When you hold the ball it is very round and fuzzy, like the caring kind of fuzzy. I guess I would have to say that I am not really like this ball, but I can relate it to my reading and writing.  I do not really like to write complicated or complex things. This ball is what I would like to call, very simple, like my writing. Another reason would be that I do not really like to read or write at all, but like this ball, I learn to just roll with it and get it over with. A ball does not always roll straight either. I can not just read or write things straight through. I ALWAYS get off track in some way, shape, or form. Also, the ball will not move unless someone makes it move. I need to be motivated to get things done or I'll end up doing nothing.   

Reader Response #2- Bechdel

Okay, so I have to be honest and say that I did not have one clus as to what the point of this story/comic was. Then again, I do have huge problems with trying to understand the meaning of what I just read. But, anyway, I thought the way it started it was going to be very interesting. Like, looking and exploring more into the dream that she had. After her father died, literally right after, like before the funeral, the whole story had me lost. I had no idea as to why he died because so many things were thrown at me at once. I don't know, maybe it is just me. Then, she went on to decribe a highway for a while and I am not sure if that was just to show the reader where she lived and how small of a town it really was, or what.  The story, then, took a weird turn in my opinion. She talked about, what I thought, random things, like the daylight savings time, and the acidic water from the mine runoff. Then, all of a sudden she's into poetry??? Also, I had no idea what her dad was doing when he took the coloring book from her. Her mom almost reminded me of a housewife with her attitude. I do not really know what was going on in this story, but what I DO know is that it had something to do with sunsets. Maybe someone can help explain?

In Class Prompt #1- Self Efficacy

I am mostly afraid of writing. Well, maybe not writing itself, but the fact that other people read what I write. I don't really know why I'm so afraid of it. I think maybe it has something to do with the fact that I don't like it when people judge me for what I say or do. Throughout high school, however, I have slowly learned to stop having this fear. Though it still bothers me quite a bit, it IS getting better. I'm actually glad that we are writing about this because, literally, twenty minutes before class I had checked my blog and someone had written a response about the story I started writing the night before. I had never written ANYTHING like it. But, I was glad to see that someone enjoyed what I had written. It made me feel better knowing that I can think outside the box and write something unusual. Maybe all I need is honest opinions given to me in a respectful way. I remember one time in high school we were doing peer revisions, but you didn't know whose paper you were reading. I got mine back and wanted to cry! The comments down the side of my paper were HORRIBLE! Like someone should have shot me instead of me writing that paper! (maybe that is what I should write my narrative about!) <--haha!  Anyway, I felt that negative comments were hurting my ability to write a creative story. I eventually just gave up! I figured no one liked them, so why keep trying? I am really glad that I did try again the other night, and someone LOVED it! It honestly has given me the confidence to start writing creatively again! I can't wait to continue on with my story! I feel that it is important to do creative writing, because, to be honest, there is no fun writing something so structured to the point where you are bored out of your mind.

Reader Response #1- The Secondhand Bookseller

I just finished reading The Secondhand Bookseller. To be honest my first thought was that this short story was going to be about a bookseller, but instead it was about a little girl who loved to read. I did not really like the amount of detail that the author put into this story. I felt that it was a bit overkill. It seemed like they talked about how hot it was and they described the bookstore a little too much. I mean, a bookstore is a bookstore. One of the things I liked about the story was that the bookseller was very nice to the girl in the end by letter her barrow books. I didn't really like him in the beginning of the story because I felt like he was being rude to her by saying that she probably couldn't understand one word in the book. Another part I liked was when the main character and her friend made an exchange for money with a pencil box. I thought it was funny because I remember doing stuff like that in elementary school. I also felt like they put too much detail into the side story with Sarah and her neighborhood and her parents. I did not think it was relevant to anything. Overall, it was a good short story. I just wish that it didn't have so many details about things we already got the point to. I feel like when books or short stories do that, they can sometimes lose the reader in detail and then not get the main point to what they are reading.

The Rotting-Part: 1 (Misc.)

She was running through the sewer. Tired, cold, and hungry she fell to her knees and began to cry. She couldn't believe, or even try to understand what was happening to her city. Exhausted, she started to focus on the steady sound of water dripping down the dark, wet walls. The smell was as if there had been dead animal flesh that had been baked in the sun, now soggy in the cloudy liquid. Everything was completely quiet. She started to fall into a light slumber, that's when she heard the sounds of the man eating creatures, some of which were once her friends, coming closer and closer. The sounds were getting louder and her heart started to pound. All that she could think about, and all that there was left to do, was run.
(24 Hours Earlier)
Ashley, running late as usual, was sprinting to her car trying not to spill her coffee. Quickly, she ran through the automatic doors of the Blaze City Hospital. Dashing to the time clock, with just minutes before she would have been counted as 'late', she thought to herself, "Right on time. This is going to be a good day!"
She reached the nurses station where one of the nurses she was replacing handed her the charts for the patients back in the rooms. There were more charts than usual, but most looked like they were getting ready to go home. "Easy day" Ashley thought, but little did she know, that being late for work was going to be the least of her worries.
(To Be Continued)

What the heck am I going to do woth myself?! (Career Choice)

So, I guess you could say that I was like every other high school student, not really thinking about what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. Just living in the moment. Then, Senior year hit me, and when I say 'hit me' I really mean 'slapped me in the face like a ton of bricks in a pillow case, crushing reality in my brain.' WHAT THE HECK WAS I GOING TO DO WITH MYSELF?! I literally made a list of things I enjoyed doing inside and outside of school to get ideas. It seemed like 90% of the things on my list were music related. I LOVE MUSIC! I think I was in every choir and band at some point in my high school career. So, I guess it just seemed pretty clear to me that I should focus on a music career, become a music teacher of some sort. The more I thought about it, the more I began to worry because I thought about all the schools cutting their music programs. Plus, every school around here (which is where I would like to stay) had young/new music teacher and were set for years to come. So, once again, back to my list. Then, I came across math. Math, what can I do with math? I decided that I liked banking and things of that nature. (Or at least I think I do??) I guess that's when I decided to major in financial services. Now I'm not really sure opportunities I really have with financial services, but I'm guessing I can do a lot of different things with it. If anyone actually knows, or has ideas, I would LOVE to hear about them.